Saturday, September 25, 2010
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
Am I slow to get up, or is my day quick to get started?
Is time truly of the essence or have I essentially lost my sense of urgency?
Does it matter how soon I get there because every pace with haste isn't part of a race, right?
Is there someone or anyone waiting for me, expecting me, or wishing I would show up for better or for worse?
The difference I plan on making, will it be short-lived or often recollected?
Is this really for the greater good, or do I just "think" I'm doing great?
Are you sick of all my questions, or do these thoughts ever cross your mind too?
Perhaps, I'll digress and ask... are you just sick of me, and my constant thinking, my regular mind-swirling activities, my "two cents", or just Torry T in general?
I could go on and on about ^that^ but where will it get me... it won't get me you or us or that plus one in my life that truly understands and appreciates me for... well me.
Ah yes, I must progress, I must advance, push on and persist; gotta get back to "winning" right?
Who knows "win" I'll "win" again but I know it's gotta happen soon, honestly, I'm not blowing smoke in the "win" because I've gotta get it back... I mean that's all I used to do.
Thanks... much love... uALREADYknow...
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
I've heard absence makes the heart grow fonder. Well, I believe absence brings about that silence - no conversation, no laughter and no snuggling, nor make-up sex after. It makes you wonder, if you're not there, do they even care? Does it become out of sight, out of mind? And you ponder if you're wasting your time.
If there's a mutual understanding to step away, does that mean the mutual feelings are truly reciprocated?
Are we doomed to be consumed by our emotions of being apart, being away, and being half of our whole?
Are we called fools for falling in love, or fools for holding on to something not yours?
Do we become possessive or obsessive? Is it right or do we even have that right to be either? Is that even progressive? How can we move forward if we are trying to control those feelings of love? How can we even think to control the ones we love? It's not mine, it's not yours, it can't be owned or put on hold?
They say, "let's take a break." What???!!!??? You can't break love, it doesn't tire, it doesn't eat or sleep, nor give up on you next week. Real love isn't lost or conjured up. You can't create love, no more than you can destroy love... if it's real. That's why, they have other words like... infatuated with, lust, like, attracted to, drawn by, fascinated with, turned on by or even smitten. There's tons of others, so stop abusing the word and using it as an excuse or reason.
Let it grow, and let it show because some people's words don't mean the same as mine, or yours or that guy over there checking you out. Just remember you can't control love, and when you finally feel it, you will know the real from the rest and that feeling is the BEST.
So I shall no longer digress and remind you that love may be blind, but when it's real, it's one of a kind. And if you try to control it, fake it or break it, you'll actually find unsuccessfulness. (<---- not used correctly, I know, but you know what I mean.) So when it's time for "that break" remember that the real love doesn't dissipate, and it will definitely await... it's true calling. No substitutes, no replacements and nothing forced nor forged will suffice.
So therefore, you can play all day, and have standins in the way, but ain't nothing like the "real" thing baby. You already know... so let things be how they are going to be. Don't fight the feeling because I mean how can you love if you've never let it go, right?