Sunday, December 5, 2010
Monday, November 15, 2010
A simple thank you... my way.
I've strayed from the strange and diverged from the delusional.
Shall I dare compare to a great symphony, since my restlessness has been composed so harmoniously...
Or perhaps it was a felicitous gesture that made the difference. I'm not sure what it is, but I feel refreshed like a harley ride into the sunset. Hi! Me? on a motorcycle? Well we all know that I cancan be a little wilde at times, but liz-sen, I find time to chill and smell the lillies... Ooops.
You know, it could have been that angelique-blown wend that eased that hike from yester, garcias for that brutha. Al-i B knowing is that I feel good, like I just floo to the moon and back or better yet like I caught a ride with my boy Helios from one horizon to another with the soleil.
You know I frequently here the sam shit everyday. And Most y'all think I'm aragon-t! Mee?-shit, I bet I could ask ten people if I've enhanced their life lately and 9.5 out of 10 would kris-sen me with a toast to my good deeds, [the half is bcuz there's always an indecisive one lynn-ing one way or the other :-)]. Now since I'm not going to send out a massi email, Em probably gonna forget to show appreciation to a few of you but that's MA mistake, so please forgive me. I mean no disrespect so please don't chave me from your life. Bcuz I stefinitely need you, for bether or worse.
Haeil to my folks that differ from me so much, but keep me smiling with every site. I reenie, reenie, reenie need you too. And mark my word, I'll find a way to enhance everyone's life so chil - lemi take my time and find you; even if I go slow, like Fred and Barney using their feet to run them cars. Of course I'd much rather have an Auddie so yeah I know I'm being corny, but I'm trying to remember all my peeps that have been there for me lately.
Now you know you can r-eli on me to give you some lengthy word passages; some of wisdom and others that are a real knee slapper, quite hubertous indeed. But today I'm trying to make it feel like it's your day, almost like your birthday, (cheryl-y you can appreciate that!).
Now to be quite frank, I know I've been on the mike too long. So my efforts to win, win, win and be victorias have kept me going on and on. Sorry but when it's all love you don't stop until you get enough.
Talk about muchluv2all heh heh heh
P.s. Please don't try to emend my words, and I may be a lowly math teacher but I won a few spelling bees back in my day, but now I'm on my way to that masters... You coming to my graduation?
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Friday, October 29, 2010
Is this attacking or mean?
Friday, October 22, 2010
Friday, October 15, 2010
Get Your Mind Right...
P.s. my journey to work is much more of a jaunt than a hopscotch. That's why my messages are so long.
Friday, October 8, 2010
Cocky? Me?
So when it comes to the things I do, there is certain way they're done. It involves a certain attitude, a distinct persona, a "TorryT-esque" approach and no matter what or who would do the same task, it won't ever be the same. It may be similar or even remind you of me, but the stamp I put on what I do is absolutely unforgettable. Heh heh heh Imitations are welcome, you can even steal an idea or two, but when it comes to me and my style, you may only come close. And sorry my friends, but we are in the game of life; we're not playing horse shoes here. {-love that line-} So my people, I hope you realize my vainglory stems from knowing, nah, truly understanding who I am. So as soon as you find that within yourself, then you may truly comprehend where I'm coming from; and then guess who'll be right there to pat you on your back... uALREADYknow. Have it easy today people.
Thursday, October 7, 2010
Gotta get it done...
Sunday, October 3, 2010
Starting anew...
Saturday, September 25, 2010
Happy 80th Grandma...
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
When I'm late...
Am I slow to get up, or is my day quick to get started?
Is time truly of the essence or have I essentially lost my sense of urgency?
Does it matter how soon I get there because every pace with haste isn't part of a race, right?
Is there someone or anyone waiting for me, expecting me, or wishing I would show up for better or for worse?
The difference I plan on making, will it be short-lived or often recollected?
Is this really for the greater good, or do I just "think" I'm doing great?
Are you sick of all my questions, or do these thoughts ever cross your mind too?
Perhaps, I'll digress and ask... are you just sick of me, and my constant thinking, my regular mind-swirling activities, my "two cents", or just Torry T in general?
I could go on and on about ^that^ but where will it get me... it won't get me you or us or that plus one in my life that truly understands and appreciates me for... well me.
Ah yes, I must progress, I must advance, push on and persist; gotta get back to "winning" right?
Who knows "win" I'll "win" again but I know it's gotta happen soon, honestly, I'm not blowing smoke in the "win" because I've gotta get it back... I mean that's all I used to do.
Thanks... much love... uALREADYknow...
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
Does love go...
I've heard absence makes the heart grow fonder. Well, I believe absence brings about that silence - no conversation, no laughter and no snuggling, nor make-up sex after. It makes you wonder, if you're not there, do they even care? Does it become out of sight, out of mind? And you ponder if you're wasting your time.
If there's a mutual understanding to step away, does that mean the mutual feelings are truly reciprocated?
Are we doomed to be consumed by our emotions of being apart, being away, and being half of our whole?
Are we called fools for falling in love, or fools for holding on to something not yours?
Do we become possessive or obsessive? Is it right or do we even have that right to be either? Is that even progressive? How can we move forward if we are trying to control those feelings of love? How can we even think to control the ones we love? It's not mine, it's not yours, it can't be owned or put on hold?
They say, "let's take a break." What???!!!??? You can't break love, it doesn't tire, it doesn't eat or sleep, nor give up on you next week. Real love isn't lost or conjured up. You can't create love, no more than you can destroy love... if it's real. That's why, they have other words like... infatuated with, lust, like, attracted to, drawn by, fascinated with, turned on by or even smitten. There's tons of others, so stop abusing the word and using it as an excuse or reason.
Let it grow, and let it show because some people's words don't mean the same as mine, or yours or that guy over there checking you out. Just remember you can't control love, and when you finally feel it, you will know the real from the rest and that feeling is the BEST.
So I shall no longer digress and remind you that love may be blind, but when it's real, it's one of a kind. And if you try to control it, fake it or break it, you'll actually find unsuccessfulness. (<---- not used correctly, I know, but you know what I mean.) So when it's time for "that break" remember that the real love doesn't dissipate, and it will definitely await... it's true calling. No substitutes, no replacements and nothing forced nor forged will suffice.
So therefore, you can play all day, and have standins in the way, but ain't nothing like the "real" thing baby. You already know... so let things be how they are going to be. Don't fight the feeling because I mean how can you love if you've never let it go, right?
Monday, August 30, 2010
First school day... kinda
"Welcome to Mr. Thompson's class" is what is read across the top of the white board. Students flood in carrying index cards, some are able to find the instructions and follow them by filling out information about themselves on the cards. Others are loud, looking to see what I'm seeing and noticing, trying my nerve and testing the so-called "new teacher." The late bell rings, I walk in to the front of class and bring out my timer and announce, (all in one breath), "You have 30 seconds to get those shirts tucked in, those hoods off and in compliance with the school dress policy or else you will spend your nutrition with me learning how to dress yourself accordingly." I'm counting down to the last second, pointing at unacceptable tuckings. The tone is beginning to be set, but just as I begin to let them know how it's going to be everyday, I am getting disrespectfully challenged. There was a lot of chitchat going on; and that is so not acceptable in my class. "HEY!!!!" "LISTEN UP!!!" It had become apparent to me that I must set these youngsters in place right now. "First rule... when I'm talking you are absolutely not! Because if you're talking while I am, then you can't listen. And if you can't listen then you can't learn. Therefore if you aren't learning, and so what are you here for?" This is all stated with my wrinkled forehead look. Going on with my no nonsense speech, I further exclaimed... "I'm not here for you to like me, I'm here for you to learn from me. Now, on another note... I have a serious attitude, and I'm fine if you have one yourself because you should, BUT... just make sure you don't have one with me. Because if you do then you're going to have a problem, that you can't solve and in a dilemma that I always win. So I understand people having positive and negative attitudes about different things, just remember to not start something or bring that wrong attitude in this class." Hmmmmm. Now picture yourself, a seventh grader with a seemingly mean and upset Black math teacher with an attitude in front of you that ends his little speech with... And when I say something I mean it, and I'm not playing. Sounds fun huh?
Now I'm sure a lot of you might say... oh my child won't have a teacher talking to them like that. Or maybe... that's uncalled for, there's no need to scare kids like that. Perhaps some of y'all think... well, I wish my kids would have had someone like that as their teacher to keep them in check. And I'm sure there's, at best, one of you who'll read this and think.... mmmm hmmmm discipline me Mr. T. HEH HEH HEH sorry that was out of line, and off topic. My point is this, there are many ways to begin class with middle school kids and this no nonsense approach has always given me great results and began a great rapport between my students and I. You can believe me or not, I don't care; go try teaching yourself and then give me your opinion. HEH HEH HEH
We continued with an activity, and then moved on to discuss my syllabus that had the class rules and procedures. More rules??? Oh yes, my first rules were to keep the class in check, the syllablus rules keep the class running smoothly. But the kicker to discussing my syllabus is not the ordinary hand it out and we read it word for word. Oh no no no, my students will not get a copy just yet. I will explain key points out loud and they will take notes on it, leaving it in their notebooks for future reference. I dish out details on everything from the course objective, to the BE PROMPT, BE PREPARED, BE POLITE, BE POSITIVE (you better believe I put my optimisim in there), to required materials, to grading and cheating. Every student took notes, some better than others, but they all know now. I'll give them a copy to take home and return on Wednesday. What? Why would I do that you say? Well, actually the copier was occupied this morning, so I improvised.
I may be losing a few of you by now... so let me get to the meat and potatoes. Did the day go smoothly and controlled? No. Did I have to yell at anyone and get in a kid's face or put my fingers in someone face? Come on now, of course.... not. That's not my style. I'm smarter than these kids and my words are my weapons. I don't need to swear or insult or belittle or demean anyone. BUT... you better believe, I kept kids after class individually and as a whole group, had sidebars with a few, made kids stand that didn't know how to sit, made kids get up and mingle that thought everyone was going to come to them, and even had a student shadow me around class because he wasn't very clear on how to follow instructions. Am I mean? Heh, I can be the meanest or I can be the nicest teacher you've ever met! You choose what you want, it's all about your attitude. I told them that too. Oh btw, one student already said, "I already like you better than my past math teachers, you're cool Mr. Thompson." And of course I cracked that mischievous smile of mine and said... "We'll see."
THANKS FOR READING, now please comment, criticize or congratulate below or somewhere. =^_^= MuchLuv2All
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
Blood is thicker than all this BULLSHIT
Jaime Linda Gutierrez I would like to know peoples thoughts on "Blood is Thicker Than Water"....cuz in my opinion that comment is a bunch of shit!!!! Family is what you feel in your heart for that person. I have friends who I consider "family" but we aint blood, but they are loyal to me....so family in my opinion is not by the blood or last name you carry.....
"Blood is Thicker than Water" SHIIIIIIIIITTTTTTT If that ain't some bullshit, I don't know what is. If blood is thicker than water, then what the hell are friends for, why make friends, how come we even get married to a friend or stranger?... Now that may be a little extreme, but my point is that just bcuz you are family doesn't mean you are deserved or owed or ENTITLED to certain "rights" or "privileges" or "advantages" over non-family members. For example, I've been friends with a few people for 22 years, we've been through all kinds of shit! And let's say if any of them were going through hard times, or say they just wanted to come visit with their family or whatever and needed a place to crash or some money for this or that. Well, bcuz I know them and we've proven our loyalty throughout the years, I wouldn't hesitate to help them and I'd do WHATEVER I could to help them out bcuz I've got REAL LOVE for them. Now if my cousin or uncle or nephew or niece or whatever "blood" relative asked to stay with me, borrow some money or crash and we hardly talked, haven't spent any time together at all really and have known of each other but not ever got to know one another then they can almost forget it, or there would be a lot hesitation before I consider it. Shit if I had a family member living with me now that wasn't trying to get better or progress themselves, and my friend needed me, then shit, my "blood" might have to kick rocks or make themselves scarce if they couldn't contribute or weren't "cool" with me helping my friend. Back in the day my family kicked me out, claimed I ran away, left me living in the streets for weeks, and I didn't have a roof over my head until my boy scooped a brutha up and said you are staying here. His mom fed me, his brothers made me their brothers and my real life-family expanded. I thank God everyday for all my friends and family and I say it just like that bcuz one isn't necessarily more important than the other, but I will say this... I've got a lot of friends that are more important than a lot of my family and my love will always run deep for them.
Now it is important for me to state that the love that I have for my family is true and real as well. I've got family I've known all my life, known part of my life, or just met and known recently in my life and, (if they are real), I'm down for them just like I'm down for my friends bcuz they are true, real and ain't done me dirty. They haven't written me off, disowned me, or talked to my other family members about something I've done so that I could be looked down upon; and trust me I've done some crazy shit. I've got family on my team and that's how it's gotta be. You ain't gotta agree with me and you ain't gotta do what I do, but if you can support me or can constructively criticize me and don't try to bring me down or belittle me then I'll love you until the end and always be down. That's mad love and I know what that's about. And if you don't you better ask somebody...
All I'm saying is that it's all about show and prove, if you ain't trying to show, then that proves to me you ain't trying to be true. Don't come to me at the last minute and be like, do me this favor bcuz we're family. Bcuz I'm gonna tell you staight up and out, I don't give a fuck, you better have a better excuse than that, and where's the love been all our lives? Blood is real and that breaks the ice, but it damn sure don't entitle you to my life. Not your opinion, not your judgement and damn sure not your shit you try to bring to me. Keep it real, and you'll always have real friends and family in your life and be fake or try to impress others and you'll end up with poor friends and two-faced family members that will shit on you. Fuckin blood is thicker than water bullshit, sorry jG, I can't stand that damn saying. It really should say, PROVEN LOYALTY IS THICKER THAN BLOOD OR WATER! And remembering that you don't need everyone in your life. If that friend or family or whoever ain't trying to encourage and/or endorse what you are trying to achieve for the enrichment of your life, then they aren't someone that should be a part of your life and basically the curb is right there, so kick 'em to it. Getting rid of people like that in your life enhances your life and makes you feel better about yourself and it feels DAMN good; trust me I know and I LOVE IT!!! Stay Strong, Stay True, BE YOU!!!
Was I out of line or just being me...
Judging... but was I rude... not that I really give a shiizzzzzzzzzz UITB
Lilly Olson-Keovilayphone: You should never judge the people you love... and actions ALWAYS speak louder than words...
Some friend of hers decided to respond this way...
Rob Collier: You are soooo correct!!! Also never judge a book by its cover!! I get this a lot!!! And I hate it!!! I am so use to getting dirty looks..was asked by my sis in laws dad how many years I was in prison? WTF? I got mad!!! I have never been to ...jail!! arrested or in any trouble what so ever!!! I just looked at him and said with a very angry look on my face.."You did not just say that to me" then I went off!! I think they have been upset with me ever since..talk about jumping to conclusions..and when did prison get such beautiful colors? Anyways never, ever judge ANYONE!!!One Love
Lillian B, your statement about not judging the ones you love is spot on... bcuz you should be able to bypass all of that judgement with real love; real love for family or friends. NOW, Rob, that statement, "never judge a book by it's cover..." is one of the MOST hypocritical statements of all time! The reason I say that is bcuz EVERYONE does it in one form or another, and at one time or another inadvertently. It's all about presentation. If you walk around wearing a suit all the time, be prepared to have some think you are well off, professional and respectable. If you walk around sagging with your underwear hanging out, be prepared for people to thing you bang, you are a thug, you listen to offensive music and probably consider you uneducated. If you walk around with great makeup, large shades, nice clothes with a GORGEOUS body, be prepared for women to think you are a bitch, or full of yourself or even slutty if you are showing more skin than they are or your clothes are tight. People judge you if you are Black, if you are tattooed all over, or if you are you really fat or even just really tall! It's human nature to prejudge, and it's why people don't just walk up to others and have conversations with strangers on a regular basis. Bcuz we "think" or we "assume" or we "jump to conclusions" about how others are on their appearance. This is something we can't control but we can most definitely alter. My profile picture is a prime example, I wear those shades and walk around with that look on my face quite often and I am trying to portray myself as an "asshole" and that I'm unapproachable. And that's what I want you to think at that time. BUT... not one of my friends or family, if asked to describe me and my personality would ever use the word "asshole" to describe me. But it's how I present myself at times and if you present yourself a certain way, be prepared to take on and handle the scrutiny from all others. Yeah people say who cares what people think or what people say about you, but that's not true because we all care about that too, one way or another. IF you didn't care then why would you let what that guy say get to you? Why do we let any words people say of us get to us? Regardless of our reasonings, just realize that they just won when we show them our infuriation with their words. Instead you could have laughed and told him about himself. For example, while smiling at him you could have stated "hmmmm you must have spent a few times in prison yourself to identify that someone with tattoos must have done some time." And after making that statement to him, who do you think would be the one upset? Exactly. So all I am saying is always understand that you will be judged regularly bcuz of your appearance, as we all will. But it's up to you how you present yourself, which opens you up to different judgements you may or may not like. What's more important than worrying about being judged is how you react to it, and personally, I have already won, (besides all I do is WIN WIN WIN) every time someone looks upon me and "thinks" they know who I am, what I represent or what my next move is. I LOVE IT TOO bcuz they just proved to me that I'm better than they are with their negative assumptions, heh heh heh. On a final note, as a realist, I don't pretend to think everything is all good, or people generally think the best of others and with smiles and positive statements things will be all "gravy baby" bcuz they won't. Optimism takes action and can be achieved when you practice and believe. MuchLuv2All
p.s. damn I guess I felt pretty passionate about this, sorry Lil, but I know you understand the love. =^_^=
So my question is this... am I rude or protective or straight up?
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
Wow, she brought it...
Communication, cooperation, and consideration played roles during this harmonious time. This lovely incredible lady talked to a little boy, about fried chicken, brushing his teeth and Superman. His voice was filled with excitement as he spoke loudly about how much he loved meatloaf and Michael Jackson's "Man in the Mirror" and heads started to turn and faces began to show enjoyment. It was incredible, I couldn't believe what I was perceiving, I know it's not the first time this has happened, nor would it be the last. Just bearing witness to something so simple, yet remarkable, warmed my heart. This happy accident is way too irregular, and that's unfortunate. People, we all love being happy, but we are not allowing ourselves to do that anymore and it's easy. A simple smile, a NICE excuse-me, any courteous good-mannerism or any good-natured gesture makes a difference. They always say the little things count, but how about we start trying to count the little things that bring us joy, and in turn we share with others to enhance the lives around us. BTW you just did it for me by taking the time read a few words from me. =^_^= thank you MuchLuv2All
P.S. Should I have asked that woman with angelic appeal her name... nah I'll move on knowing she's blessing other souls with her rays of merriment and exhilaration.
Thursday, July 29, 2010
Time to Attain...
Saturday, July 24, 2010
To have beauty or be beautiful...
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
RELEASE...
Monday, June 21, 2010
Get that itch?
The exploration of life is something our minds need to continue learning and to become more well rounded. We should explore different ways people live, survive and flourish. Discovering new ways to be happy and different things to do are essential in the pursuit of happiness and you find these through exploration. New life, new job, new love, new habitat and new beginnings are all pieces that can be revealed with a fresh start. There comes a time in life when your job gets stale or out of demand, or when your love life has become stagnant with the same characters around to date, or maybe you just aren't finding that gel to mix, that mold to fit, or that glue to stick in where you are. Something fresh, something new can/will alleviate that. "Not always," you may say. Yes always because it's not the same when you go fresh and you are not afraid to change. Do you realize time does slow down, sometimes almost stop? There's a certain type of clock that is within all of us that measures time with growth. The way we advance through life's different experiences and situations is what builds our maturity. When someone lives in the same environment all their life, they develop a comfort level. At this level, there are the same people around, same everyday circumstances, same regular comfortable things but also same stupid stuff as well,(like your friend or family that thinks things are the same as they were in high school, 15 yrs later). With this minimal change, there is no maturity of self because there aren't any new challenges to develop you, to make you better, or to enhance life. You stop growing in these comfort levels and slowly you begin to digress. Your clock slows down, you stop growing, you stop learning, and you stop caring to make things better. Your clock stops and you begin saying, "what's the point" or "nothing is gonna get better anyway," or "I can't do this or that now anyway." This is also the time when people begin thinking there's not much important things outside "their world." This isn't the type of attitude that makes it happen, makes a difference or makes anything for that matter; but you already know that.
Is this an easy transition... not for everybody, but there are tremendous benefits. Is this something anyone can do... YES, however it gets less easy with more years and more attachments, (but that doesn't make it impossible). Does it cost a lot of money... hell everything costs money these days, and you can let that get in the way if you are scared. Scared of hard work and dedication, scared of risk, and worried about controlling the unknown. "I can't afford it," can be used as a mask for all of the above. And you are right, we all can't just up and move like it ain't nothing, but don't let that stop you from trying by taking steps to get there and saving money. We already know if we want something, it ain't going to fall out of the sky into our lap. We must apply ourselves, stop putting things off, and follow through.
Should we all just jump up and go for it and move? No, no, no, that's not what I'm saying either. I'm saying visit a different country, drive to a new state, go on a cruise, go to college out of state, or go visit out of town friends or relatives, (we love the company ;-) ). It could be for any reason at all. Just go, exercise your brain and live a little. You may find somewhere you like and want to try to live there. If it doesn't work out, it's always easy to run back home and that's always cheaper. Because those people that were there when you left will still be there in their community with the same old circumstances and the same ridiculousness to complain about. You don't have to be that person. You can make a difference in your life, your family's life, your children's and the lives of those people waiting to meet you in those other places. So whether it's a new career, new environment, or new style of life just keep in mind to have an open mind and there's nothing to stop you but... you. So get out of your own way, and try something new today.
MuchLuv2All
P.s. let me know what ya think, opinions welcome and praises appreciated.